Altars [EN]

Where I was born and raised in Portugal the idea of altars was only present in my life in a church in a very conventional way. Setting up a cross, lighting candles and worshiping whatever that is, how ever that meant. And I would more often see it in chapels and churches, cemeteries even, in a very strict, structured and formal way. Almost like you had to have permission to set up an altar in that formal way. And I was raised in this society, although very open to other religions, it was mostly Catholic. I never practiced it. My parents never really did. The reason why they never baptized me was let me choose my belief systems or practice my own beliefs, in the way that I wanted. Later I saw myself seeking truth more than hollow beliefs. That led me to become more aware of life’s mysteries, life’s most obscure and mysterious vibes of nature, and within ourselves holding the power of the mind, or /and under the powers of the mind. In the phenomenons of nature and chemistry there is a lot we don’t know and it is to that unknown that I give the same strength of faith or belief that a god believer would give in his prayer. So it’s in that hole. It’s in that so vast and unknown space within our knowledge that I concede, to myself, that idea of god, as in the root and direction of our belief. So for me that idea of worshiping something that is unknown, is not just for the sake of being unknown. So I realized that everything else under our sense-scope is under our physical perception, but all these things are under the influence of something greater something that we can call the ‘unknown’. Many sciences have labeled, when coming to confront these facts in their research, as space or ether. 99.9% of an atom is space. And from that, we include all our physical life forms under this realization, all is atom based. Properties, elements, compounds, substances, and 99.9% of it is just space. And what are all these substances based on? So that’s where on a rational level I started to embrace the idea of god. Also throughout my readings and studies, I think I came to terms of naming the idea of god, the absolute, the supreme or the supreme-self… Which is great. I think it gives space for acceptance of different form of that which is formless. And slowly, gradually faded into and went through different forms of acknowledgement. I used to think more about it in a meditation. Taking it to the day-to-day life, used to talk to people and try to see what is between us in that space. See what is there beyond the words they speak, and the words I perceive. In an attempt to expand my senses to a broader spectrum.

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